First of all, WE CARE! How do you know that tomorrow isn’t the day that the cure is found? Suicide is the most dumb thing that can be contemplated. I’m not making light of the thought because of the problems associated with Ataxia but you WOULD be missed even though you don’t think so now. Even though you might not see it here, you’re not the only one who has to face difficult times. I’m sorry to speak so harsh here but I’m only trying to set you straight.
Have you looked into trying to find an Ataxia support group? https://ataxia.org/ In my estimation, playing the stock market with “tough money” is a form of gambling. Have you looked into support with a Gambler’s Anonymous support group? Friends of mine did and it’s very helpful.
BTW, how old are you?